People Come, People Go, People Think What I Don't Know

But one thing I do really wanna let these peoples know...

Your illusion:
1) by committing suicide can solve all your problems
2) death is the best solution when you are down
3) when you are gone the pieces of somebody's heart will be missing you

The fact:
1) You are actually just about to create another
2) What if when you are up again? Rebirth only happen on Jesus!!!
3) Don't dream la! for that will only happen in Avril Lavigne's song because it is proven that time is a powerful pain killer

My Believing:
Only if God is calling you to heaven, that should be the only time for you to leave your smelly body and walk to Him. Obviously I do not know the actual feelings that you are having but I can be pretty sure that the pain and sorrow in you now maybe nothing comparing to somebody who is lying on the sick bed and struggling to fight for his/her breath, or who is in deep hunger yet gotta find food for his/her loved ones, or might be even lighter than what I had gone through.

My Conclusion:
Hello! Facebook is a page for socializing and sharing and it is definitely not a page which encouraging you to write your last piece then commit suicide. If you think you really have no way out, stop trusting yourself, go seek help from somebody else! So please stop posting your Death Note there before getting the copyrights from Tsugumi Ohba / Takeshi Obata else your family members might have to pay for your lawsuit even after you are gone. By the way, there will be only one Tatsuya Fujiwara in the world so please do not act as you are the one.

Only if somebody could 100% confirm that death could resolve all pains, I have been long gone and could not be posting this out... you dumb dumb!

That It's Christmas, Really Christmas For Me

So far there will be four Christmas parties that I will be attending this year. First, the one at Registry which is on the 13th. The organizing committees had sent out email about a Christmas tea party and invited people from few units. Happily I suggested for a gift exchange of RM5 among us just to create more fun and sharing. Despite of negative feedback and responses, some are agree to have it but just that they dare not to voice it out. Voices from those who are so narrow-minded and even somebody asked me to send out reminders. I am wondering what is there so much to worry about as this is gonna be an optional to the guests. No forcing to buy if they do not want to have a gift exchanged *sigh*.

Second, a Christmas lunch with gift exchange among a small unit of five to six people on the 23rd. I am not expecting any luxury or pricey gift from exchange party but not a gift which will be expiring soon plus with terms & conditions apply. I think that was the worst Christmas gift that I have received. Hence, we came out with rules in buying gift. Isn't this sound funny to have rules in buying gift? Actually it is not so much about the rule is about the heart in buying it but people got upset about this *sigh*.

Third, another Christmas party to be held in Klang which was supposed to be held at sister's home as a family gathering. However, this year it will be different as sis plans to make it a little bigger with friends instead of only family members. It will be held at a centre owned by mom's friend. So mom decided to have karaoke session at that Christmas party. OMG! I would be fine if those aunties and uncles are going to sing out loud Christmas songs otherwise *fainted*. Bigger sigh this time, huh?

I really feel like telling them... yeah all of them that:
Christmas isn't Christmas 'til it happens in your heart
Somewhere, deep inside you, is where Christmas really starts
So give your heart to people, you'll discover when you do
That it's Christmas, really Christmas for you... and me too!

(Disney - Christmas lyrics)

I used to celebrate Christmas at a very young age and at that time I did not even know what is Christmas except receiving gifts, eating and playing games with cousins (thanks to Aunt Joyce & Jamie). As I grow up, I found out actually Christmas day is also the birthday of Mary's son, Jesus Christ. So I think this man must be very generous to share his birthday with everyone (is a rest day!) and even let us have present(s) on his birthday.

Now as I am much older, I think Christmas should be a day to remember the people who loves us and people that we love, to gather up with them (just like the night before the 1st day of CNY, the reunion dinner) to share the fun, love and laughter with some Christmas songs sang by everyone. That's the real Christmas for me!

Lastly, I am longing for the last Christmas party which will be held on the 24th at jiji's house with only family members and pray that it would be full with Christmas spirit. God bless everyone on this Christmas!