一场噩梦使我在这里博客。三更半夜吓醒了睡不着无所事事就想到写博客。为什么？为什么？为什么又是老虎呢？我已经远离了它但是它还是困扰着我。为什么脑海里还是不能把它删除呢？
在梦里我又被老虎攻击。结局是有乐与悲，虽然不是真的但是小叔在梦里替我说句公正的话使我噩中有点甜。已经两个星期没有回去可是还会梦到它，是否是我自己有想着它？应该是我心理很怕回去遇见它，看见它假装的笑真的不知道如何反应才好。
天生它是一只老虎，甚至很会办猪的老虎。而我是一只追求正义及真相，极固执的龙加上天平座的性质,我是很难妥协很难和这种假仁假义的人生活。这真是一套不一样的龙虎门。
Tuesday, 20 September 2011
Wednesday, 6 July 2011
The First Impression... loh!
After several meetings talking about on-brand matter, our department had agreed that first impression is important in any situations.
Somehow, the first impression that most of us experienced at our Balai Polis (police station lah!) is ... *speechless*. Many people complaints after reporting to a balai you have to go to another balai to report again because "wrong station" (the case happen was in another district so you have to go to that district police station to make a report). Then? What for we were asked to talk / explain / write / spend so much time at this so called "not-related station"? *crazee*
So, people next time please be wiser, ask first whether you are in the right balai and if the answer is no then just say "Thank you and Bye!". Don't waste time, waste $$$ (if not mistaken have to pay RM1 for making a report) and most importantly waste our effort loh.
Oh yeah, by the way, today TheSun says you can now rate the cops woh, so what you're waiting for? ;p
Somehow, the first impression that most of us experienced at our Balai Polis (police station lah!) is ... *speechless*. Many people complaints after reporting to a balai you have to go to another balai to report again because "wrong station" (the case happen was in another district so you have to go to that district police station to make a report). Then? What for we were asked to talk / explain / write / spend so much time at this so called "not-related station"? *crazee*
So, people next time please be wiser, ask first whether you are in the right balai and if the answer is no then just say "Thank you and Bye!". Don't waste time, waste $$$ (if not mistaken have to pay RM1 for making a report) and most importantly waste our effort loh.
Oh yeah, by the way, today TheSun says you can now rate the cops woh, so what you're waiting for? ;p
Friday, 3 June 2011
The Ps in Me
Seriously, it took me more than a while to start this post. I had been struggling for the first word to make my first line and I decided to write it this way.
What is P? The letter after N and O, take away it and it forms NO. Non-ordinary? When I was younger, the word "gay" is nothing but a word to shame / to laugh / to joke on somebody. Use it when you see a soft-spoken boy or a girlie guy then laugh at him as loud as it will brings your lungs out and if he cries, shout to the world that he is a gay and get more people agree with you.
As I am getting more and more Ps in my life, today, I have a different perspective of Ps. They must not be really sissy, lady-like, soft like a girl and indeed they do look like a so called normal man but only with different interest. After all, they are just the people like us who known taxonomically as Homo sapiens, a latin word for wise man or knowing man. A man with behaviour and feelings.
Somehow, different P person in my life produces different kind of feelings to me. For instance, the three closest Ps around me. I appreciate the first P a lot because he clarifies so many things about Ps to me. He given me a clearer picture of Ps. He is the one who changed my definition of P. Besides thanking him, I am glad that he has the gut to tell me the real him, being a P and about his first love. In return, I feel happy for treating me as his real friend who he can share his personal life across the borderline. I really do feel happy to know that he had found his love for the first time even though it does not sound normal to some people but I can see the sweetness in him at that moment. I take this P as someone special in my life and I am ready to share all his secret moments when he needs an ear, the happy P.
About the second P, I could confirm him as a P based on the knowledge I got from that Happy P. I tried to indirectly letting him know that as his relative, I am accepting him as he is and I will be glad to meet with his the other half. Nevertheless, the gap between me and him is getting bigger. I think he is worried and sad after his brother yelling at him when he brought his the other half home. Would this is forever be the Unrevealed P in me?
Now, the last P that I would like to blog about, the P that I feel sad when I confirmed his secret ID. So far he is the only P that I do not wish to be real. I think there should be no rights or wrongs about being a P, or maybe it should. From different point of view, say in religion, is it a sin? It is against the law? I am not strong in any religion though I believe in Jesus so I do not know what is written in the bible. But I think I feel what God feels about Ps. On one hand I do not encourage P-ing like HE does because I am worrying about the negative comments, the sadness and the pressure when they are confronting the opponents; somehow on the other hand I do not want to ignore the feelings and condemn them like others because I respect the love and life they are fighting for. Back to the last P in me, the Sad P, whom I think he has had enough (P)ains and (P)ressures in his past life so I do not wish anymore more P for him.
Lastly, may God bless the Happy P, the Unrevealed P, the Sad P and all the Ps with true love and happiness in their lives.
What is P? The letter after N and O, take away it and it forms NO. Non-ordinary? When I was younger, the word "gay" is nothing but a word to shame / to laugh / to joke on somebody. Use it when you see a soft-spoken boy or a girlie guy then laugh at him as loud as it will brings your lungs out and if he cries, shout to the world that he is a gay and get more people agree with you.
As I am getting more and more Ps in my life, today, I have a different perspective of Ps. They must not be really sissy, lady-like, soft like a girl and indeed they do look like a so called normal man but only with different interest. After all, they are just the people like us who known taxonomically as Homo sapiens, a latin word for wise man or knowing man. A man with behaviour and feelings.
Somehow, different P person in my life produces different kind of feelings to me. For instance, the three closest Ps around me. I appreciate the first P a lot because he clarifies so many things about Ps to me. He given me a clearer picture of Ps. He is the one who changed my definition of P. Besides thanking him, I am glad that he has the gut to tell me the real him, being a P and about his first love. In return, I feel happy for treating me as his real friend who he can share his personal life across the borderline. I really do feel happy to know that he had found his love for the first time even though it does not sound normal to some people but I can see the sweetness in him at that moment. I take this P as someone special in my life and I am ready to share all his secret moments when he needs an ear, the happy P.
About the second P, I could confirm him as a P based on the knowledge I got from that Happy P. I tried to indirectly letting him know that as his relative, I am accepting him as he is and I will be glad to meet with his the other half. Nevertheless, the gap between me and him is getting bigger. I think he is worried and sad after his brother yelling at him when he brought his the other half home. Would this is forever be the Unrevealed P in me?
Now, the last P that I would like to blog about, the P that I feel sad when I confirmed his secret ID. So far he is the only P that I do not wish to be real. I think there should be no rights or wrongs about being a P, or maybe it should. From different point of view, say in religion, is it a sin? It is against the law? I am not strong in any religion though I believe in Jesus so I do not know what is written in the bible. But I think I feel what God feels about Ps. On one hand I do not encourage P-ing like HE does because I am worrying about the negative comments, the sadness and the pressure when they are confronting the opponents; somehow on the other hand I do not want to ignore the feelings and condemn them like others because I respect the love and life they are fighting for. Back to the last P in me, the Sad P, whom I think he has had enough (P)ains and (P)ressures in his past life so I do not wish anymore more P for him.
Lastly, may God bless the Happy P, the Unrevealed P, the Sad P and all the Ps with true love and happiness in their lives.
Wednesday, 27 April 2011
My Mom Doesn't Really Know How to Text Me
Looking at that RM50million that they are going to spend for email accounts. Btw, where are our computers and internet services? Will there be any training for my 50yo mom to check her mailbox? How much more do we (tax payers) need to pay for sending parents to email classes?
It is just like they are giving you a free Short-Message-Service but you have to subscribe to the mobile-service with this charges and that charges (excluding tax but not tax-free ya!) and most importantly you must buy a mobile phone with sms features (not those cheap cheap fone which can only receive and make phone calls lor).
Then if is something happen to your mailbox, they must spend another sum to look into the problem (no warranty on time taking so appreciate for being patience) but charges is based on time spent in looking into the problem. Charges to resolve that problem to be revealed later. Other terms and conditions is subject to with or without agreement (mostly is without la).
Oooi... is okay la! I prefer to call my mom instead of sending her a text for she won't bother to reply it. Telekom fixed line seems fine here!
p/s: with that RM50million, I can buy dozen of formulas and diapers for my toddler for few years even during her 'lao sai' period --- :p
It is just like they are giving you a free Short-Message-Service but you have to subscribe to the mobile-service with this charges and that charges (excluding tax but not tax-free ya!) and most importantly you must buy a mobile phone with sms features (not those cheap cheap fone which can only receive and make phone calls lor).
Then if is something happen to your mailbox, they must spend another sum to look into the problem (no warranty on time taking so appreciate for being patience) but charges is based on time spent in looking into the problem. Charges to resolve that problem to be revealed later. Other terms and conditions is subject to with or without agreement (mostly is without la).
Oooi... is okay la! I prefer to call my mom instead of sending her a text for she won't bother to reply it. Telekom fixed line seems fine here!
p/s: with that RM50million, I can buy dozen of formulas and diapers for my toddler for few years even during her 'lao sai' period --- :p
Wednesday, 20 April 2011
Does Sissy means Behaving in Improper Manner?
On yesterday news (http://www.nst.com.my/nst/articles//16eff/Article/), saying the state Education Department in Kuala Terengganu has sent 66 schoolboys with effeminate tendencies to a camp aimed at helping them behave in a proper manner.
What is the definition for "proper manner"? IMHO, you dig your nose in front of someone else is not a proper manner. You cut in the long queue is an improper manner. This including yelling, cheating, killing and the list goes on.
Like the definition in wikipedia of sissy (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sissy), the line which says it is a pejorative for a boy or man who violates or does not meet the traditional male gender role. Ah ha! What is the traditional male gender role? Do men only can be masculine and women have to be feminine? How important is this role in man's life? How successful a man would be with this role? Is this the only role that a man should have?
In linguistics, masculine / feminine means grammatical genders, sometimes also called noun classes, are classes of nouns reflected in the behavior of associated words. In human, these should be a gender that refers chiefly (but not exclusively) to males / females or to objects classified as male / female. You see? Because it is an inherited pattern of thought, are we suppose to say those boys are behaving improperly?
To me these are the characteristic in somebody. It should not really affecting our lives. A sissy man could be doing better than a macho man, and a tomboy could be far more success than a lady-like woman. It is the quality of life and knowledge in us that drives us to succeed. Criticizing them does not proof we (so called normal men and women) are right. If we were to judge them, judge them by the law not by your insight.
Be fair and be square, there are also many traditional ways that we suppose to follow but we did not. Why should you build your happiness with somebody's agony. We should not prevail negative cultural reaction against "sissy boys".
What is the definition for "proper manner"? IMHO, you dig your nose in front of someone else is not a proper manner. You cut in the long queue is an improper manner. This including yelling, cheating, killing and the list goes on.
Like the definition in wikipedia of sissy (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sissy), the line which says it is a pejorative for a boy or man who violates or does not meet the traditional male gender role. Ah ha! What is the traditional male gender role? Do men only can be masculine and women have to be feminine? How important is this role in man's life? How successful a man would be with this role? Is this the only role that a man should have?
In linguistics, masculine / feminine means grammatical genders, sometimes also called noun classes, are classes of nouns reflected in the behavior of associated words. In human, these should be a gender that refers chiefly (but not exclusively) to males / females or to objects classified as male / female. You see? Because it is an inherited pattern of thought, are we suppose to say those boys are behaving improperly?
To me these are the characteristic in somebody. It should not really affecting our lives. A sissy man could be doing better than a macho man, and a tomboy could be far more success than a lady-like woman. It is the quality of life and knowledge in us that drives us to succeed. Criticizing them does not proof we (so called normal men and women) are right. If we were to judge them, judge them by the law not by your insight.
Be fair and be square, there are also many traditional ways that we suppose to follow but we did not. Why should you build your happiness with somebody's agony. We should not prevail negative cultural reaction against "sissy boys".
Thursday, 17 March 2011
Heart Speaks Adorable 12 Commandments
First of all, thanks to Miss Goh.
The message appeared in my inbox is with the above title. Got it yesterday but did not have the time to open and read it. It has been a while Miss Goh did not forward me any mails like this, and I think God is sending me His message via someone else again.
That 12 commandments are:
1) Make up your mind to be happy. Learn to find pleasure in simple things.
2) Make the best of your circumstances. No one has everything, and everyone has something of sorrow intermingled with gladness of life. The trick is to make the laughter outweigh the tears.
3) Don't take yourself too seriously. Don't think that somehow you should somehow you should be protected from misfortune that befalls other people.
4) You can't please everybody. Don't let criticism worry you. *LIKE*
5) Don't let your neighbor set your standards. Be YOURSELF! *LIKE*
6) Do the things you enjoy doing but stay out of debt. *LMAO*
7) Never borrow trouble. Imaginary things are harder to bear than real ones.
8) Since hate poisons the soul, do not cherish jealousy. Avoid people who make you unhappy. *LIKE & HIGHLY AGREE*
9) Have many interests. If you can't travel, read about new places.
10) Don't hold postmortems. Don't spend your time brooding over sorrows or mistakes. Don't be one who never gets over things.
11) Do what you can for those less fortunate than yourself.
12) Keep busy at something. A busy person never has time to be unhappy. *TRULY AGREE*
Well, I like no. 4, 5 & 8... what about you?
Finally, don't forget to always be THANKFUL! and I am thanking
: God for today!
: my friends & family for their companions
: Facebook keeping me busy and also to have it for sharing with others
: Miss Goh once again *bow*
The message appeared in my inbox is with the above title. Got it yesterday but did not have the time to open and read it. It has been a while Miss Goh did not forward me any mails like this, and I think God is sending me His message via someone else again.
That 12 commandments are:
1) Make up your mind to be happy. Learn to find pleasure in simple things.
2) Make the best of your circumstances. No one has everything, and everyone has something of sorrow intermingled with gladness of life. The trick is to make the laughter outweigh the tears.
3) Don't take yourself too seriously. Don't think that somehow you should somehow you should be protected from misfortune that befalls other people.
4) You can't please everybody. Don't let criticism worry you. *LIKE*
5) Don't let your neighbor set your standards. Be YOURSELF! *LIKE*
6) Do the things you enjoy doing but stay out of debt. *LMAO*
7) Never borrow trouble. Imaginary things are harder to bear than real ones.
8) Since hate poisons the soul, do not cherish jealousy. Avoid people who make you unhappy. *LIKE & HIGHLY AGREE*
9) Have many interests. If you can't travel, read about new places.
10) Don't hold postmortems. Don't spend your time brooding over sorrows or mistakes. Don't be one who never gets over things.
11) Do what you can for those less fortunate than yourself.
12) Keep busy at something. A busy person never has time to be unhappy. *TRULY AGREE*
Well, I like no. 4, 5 & 8... what about you?
Finally, don't forget to always be THANKFUL! and I am thanking
: God for today!
: my friends & family for their companions
: Facebook keeping me busy and also to have it for sharing with others
: Miss Goh once again *bow*
Wednesday, 16 March 2011
Elcayhoh’s émouvoir @110316
也許就要遇到雷雨閃電的暴風圈
也許就要遇到烏雲密佈灰色陰天
凍的像冰霜 北國下雪天
也許就要遇到淚流不止的風沙天
也許以後 天氣預報不會再有晴天
也許到最後 終點是。。。
I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the world I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the world I’m coming back to where I belong
I’ve never felt so strong eh
Feeling like there’s nothing that I can’t try
This is my feelings and these are the songs singing ‘em out
If you ain’t got the heart, don’t attempt to try to pretend that you understand it
___
也許就要遇到烏雲密佈灰色陰天
凍的像冰霜 北國下雪天
也許就要遇到淚流不止的風沙天
也許以後 天氣預報不會再有晴天
也許到最後 終點是。。。
I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the world I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the world I’m coming back to where I belong
I’ve never felt so strong eh
Feeling like there’s nothing that I can’t try
This is my feelings and these are the songs singing ‘em out
If you ain’t got the heart, don’t attempt to try to pretend that you understand it
___
Friday, 11 March 2011
I'M BECOMING TO BE A STRANGER
I can't stand to create jokes anymore
Indeed I'm not that crazy
I'm just a little bit unwell
At times when I am down
I am more than a girl
I am more than a wife
And wish that I'm more than some pretty face that hypocrites
So I think It is not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Over some petty things
Find a way to lie
About a home sweet home that I’ll never see
It may sound absurd but I am not naïve
Even heroes have the right to shit
I may be disturbed but no one truly be bothered
It is really not easy to be me?
So far, far away from me
You all can sleep sound tonight
Because human was not meant to abide
With all my foolishness
In a funny black suit
Scribbling lines about me
Hmmm, hmmm, hmmm... still think it is not easy
To be me
I am only a woman with silly mind
Cracking jokes and laughing hysterically
Only a woman who does not wanna show the real me
Yet looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside of me?
Yeah, inside of me
I am turning to be a stranger to myself
Indeed I'm not that crazy
I'm just a little bit unwell
At times when I am down
I am more than a girl
I am more than a wife
And wish that I'm more than some pretty face that hypocrites
So I think It is not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Over some petty things
Find a way to lie
About a home sweet home that I’ll never see
It may sound absurd but I am not naïve
Even heroes have the right to shit
I may be disturbed but no one truly be bothered
It is really not easy to be me?
So far, far away from me
You all can sleep sound tonight
Because human was not meant to abide
With all my foolishness
In a funny black suit
Scribbling lines about me
Hmmm, hmmm, hmmm... still think it is not easy
To be me
I am only a woman with silly mind
Cracking jokes and laughing hysterically
Only a woman who does not wanna show the real me
Yet looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside of me?
Yeah, inside of me
I am turning to be a stranger to myself
Wednesday, 2 February 2011
The Shark Tale
Read about shark-finning in Kesuma, Japan today (an email from my ex-colleague)...
From now on I won't be serving shark fin anymore is not because that I am poor is just because of I have a heart, do you? I know what happen to those sharks after their fins have been removed, do you?
Not to say that I don't have heart for other animals, I shall be a vegan now but when a chicken is slaughtered it is meant to be eaten as a whole chicken and not only its wings and then dumped away or even worst to be left alive suffering without wings.
I love lives and I appreciate foods - I go shark-fin-less!!!
From now on I won't be serving shark fin anymore is not because that I am poor is just because of I have a heart, do you? I know what happen to those sharks after their fins have been removed, do you?
Not to say that I don't have heart for other animals, I shall be a vegan now but when a chicken is slaughtered it is meant to be eaten as a whole chicken and not only its wings and then dumped away or even worst to be left alive suffering without wings.
I love lives and I appreciate foods - I go shark-fin-less!!!
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