The Unusual Feeling

It is the time to sit for a test again. Why so many challenges and tests on me? Dear God, do you think that I am really fit to pass it all? I am just too weak. I promise I will stay closer to you this time and won't be walking far from you anymore. You don't need to remind me to come back to you in this way. I am naughty but you do know that I am sincere, rite? So please spare me! I am so scare. This time the feeling is so unusual. Is the mixture of so many feelings inside. Happy, excited, nervous, doubt, danger, and guilty are all well blended in me now. I wanted to but it is not right to do it (rite?) but I feel so sad to just let it go. To own it, it is a sin. Even to think about it is a sin. The biggest guilt that I had ever felt. *Sigh* God, you see? Satan is disturbing me now. I will be sad, really feel so sayang to let it go but I want it good. Just take whatever off which you feel is not rite for me to keep. Go ahead! *no eyes see liao* :'( Please forgive me, and you should one day forget me too but I won't be forgetting every single little thing that had happen.